About that diet thing? Forget it.

The 1200 calorie thing is just not working out for me.  I feel horribly depressed in the early evenings.  I don't mean that I'm hungry and cranky.  That goes without saying, and I know what that feels like.  No.  This is staring-into-space-can't-get-vertical depressed.  When I'm exercising, I feel really good.  The problem is that when I'm in this black mood state, I can't get myself to do anything.

I don't know how I did it before.  I was smoking dope regularly[1] at that particular point in my life, and I suspect it was elevating my mood.  Also, I was so motivated that I was not deterred by a few shitty moods, insane tirades, etc.  Now, I'm not as motivated.  When it comes down to it, I think I look good at this weight.  I'd like to be smaller, but I don't think I want it badly enough.  I know that I don't want to repurchase an entire wardrobe worth of clothes.

Anyway, new plan.  I'm going up to 1600, which is supposedly my basal requirement[2] (which would explain why I feel like something the cat dragged in at 1200).  This will be an average so that I can eat more or less, as desired.  I will keep trying to get myself fit with walking.  

Maybe I'll lose a little weight and maybe I won't.

I swear I've done productive things today.  I finally figured out how to adapt Perl GD::Graph to do high/low/close style graphs which is something I've been dicking around with for a really long time.  I'm planning on using that style for traffic graphs but with min/avg/max instead.

I did find the time to read this article in the Washington Post.  I have to say that I'm in total disagreement with this.  There is a 'hindsight is always 20/20' problem, but that's far from the only problem.  Basically, he acts like the whole .com economy was one big mass hallucination.  That's nice bud, but you still thought it was the right choice at the time.

He acts like people weren't actually working at these companies, but that's just totally untrue.  A lot of non-managment people put in one hell of a lot of hours at low pay for the promise of stock options.  Surely this demonstrates naivitee on their part, but most of those companies blew all that money and labor because of idiocy in management.  This does not mean the peons were not working their tails off.

So, in short, I resent his attitude of "they all got what they deserved."  I see people working their asses off here at this startup.  I'm incredulous about their viability as a company, make no mistake, but that's why I'm a contractor.  That said, people are working very hard.  Too many hours.  The company can't seem to get it's shit together, but this is a management problem.

I feel a little bad for those folks.  I don't feel that bad, but he's downright callous.  They should have known better than to take a job at below market, yeah, but if this was a mass hallucination, it extended to all facets of our economy, making it especially convincing.